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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

finally blogging after 10days.havent been doing anything much at all.so bored.im school-less and job-less.so much have been happening in my life and its really so complicating.its too tough and i donno what to do abt it.well..take each day at a time and i'll see how things goes.don wish to rush.

ReflectioNs:-

is love very impt in life?i think after o'levels..studies means the most.its further studies.its your education that will get u somewhere.love doesnt.after u get a diploma..den degree..and everything,u can continue with love isnt it?or maybe along the way too.but i suddendly feel that we all don have to rush into love.well if it doesnt come or cant find the right one..den its alright.love can wait..education cant.

intially..a decision to take up a degree was not for myself.well its for my future..but not future career.future love..pple said im silly.after all the advice i get n stuff..im still gonna take my degree for the same reason--my love life...but at the same time,for myself too.my career.if by the end of my degree the love doesnt work out..i'll tell myself that its alright..at least i got a degree for myself that will benefit me in mycareer path..

i wasted all these years in secondary school and i havent been performing well..its time for me to take my education seriously.and even if i have to give up love for what i wanna study,i think its worth it cos nothing is forever.the person might not love u forever.though its gonna be so tough and painful to let go and forget..there's nothing much we can do abt it...maybe after i get my degree..love will be much better..and maybe the person will still be there.. i really do hope so.and the person will be much better..and at that time.. hopefully it'll be an everlasting love..

hmmm..whats happening to me?i don wanna give up what i have now cos i know that for a little while..i'll regret and cry all day and become someone else..thats definately gonna happen.every ending of a relationship is like that.the pain will last for long..someone once told me..."when God takes smtg away from you... its because he has smtg better to give you...".. is that true?i really do hope so.thinking of the breaking..the hurt that will have to go through and everything..is already bringing so much pain to life.luckily its breaktime for me to reflect on life and find out what life really means.....

i wont end it..i'll just let it end naturally cos i know i have to.i've been lying to myself for so long..i know everything's not right and i still continue.i've been living a lie all these while and i know it.i guess its time to wake up and face reality though i know i cant.i'll try..i'll work hard..i know i can......... someday...............................................

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my most meaningful entry ever......
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cindy-ave-kelly (:
1/28/2004 02:53:00 AM


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