Tuesday, August 23, 2005
its the last week of the first term, first semester. time passes so quickly. our prime minister said teach less and learn more.. i dont really get this. how? in what way?.. maybe i didnt listen to the whole speech thats why. whatever the government says..
i realised that i've been a little mean this semester. i scolded some people for the slightest reason, eg. when they irritate me etc. i had my little attitude problem, mood swings... i know its not right but i can't control all the time right? yes i have been sacastic at times too, but some people really deserve it. why should i be nice to those who arent nice to me? especially when that person dislike me as well.
there's this one person that i see each time i go to school. lets call this person Nery . okay, Nery seems to have a problem with almost everything i say and do. Nery tend to stare, comment and be sacastic when speaking to me. to some it may sound like Nery is just joking or playing, but this has been happening too often. i caught Nery a few times starring, looking or listening to my conversations and actions and the next thing Nery would do is to roll his/her eyes, and give me that "oh please cindy...just shut up" its so obvious that Nery hates me. i actually dont really mind cause i dont like Nery either. we can go on being sacastic to each other.
what a sexy diva bitch wannabe. oh please, i think i make a better one though i've got not much boobs to show. i'm not being jealous for not having big boobs but i just think C-cup are towards becoming a porn star, especially if you like to flash a little (or quite a bit at times). no one needs to know how many guys you've slept with, how you got a teenage boy to sleep with you..you're about 4 years older than him i suppose..you can be his older sister. etc. go be your sex guru for all i care. if im a guy, i doubt i'd wanna have sex with you.. what more make love.
anyway i remember i once told a guy that i wanna get implants, or maybe consider getting them in future. he was so against it that he said he'd pay all the plastic surgeons not to do it for me. i dont know if he was kidding then, but i thought it was really cute.. and quite sweet too... :)
on the other hand, i realised that i've become nicer in a way (despite my mean side. well, everyone has that side of them). i'm more generous, more willing to share, much more friendlier (spellcheck please. i dont know if such word even exist), see things differently, helpful, caring, forgiving, more emotional and sensitive towards things (can be a bad thing too) ..... i sound like im bragging and doing some advertistment. im the product..laughs.
and and and..... i'm not so materialistic anymore. money doesnt mean much to me these days. well, its nice to have lots of cash but it cant buy you everything. people tend to ask, love or money? like most, i'd choose love.. but how nice if yours is filled with money too. not a need for a million. enough will do. wait, what am i saying...its getting confusing, laughs. aaaahhhh who doesnt like and want money??? laughs... call me a brat :)
cindy-ave-kelly (:
8/23/2005 12:46:00 AM
