Sunday, March 27, 2005
I just woke up not long ago.
Saturday
woke up in the afternoon. met Debbie, Joseph and his friend, Jason in town. went for dinner immediately cause I was really hungry. didn't eat anything for so many hours. Joseph had to make fun of me by saying Gabriel ill-treated me. thats out of point. we forgot to pay and walked off. the stall owners kept shouting for us. so embarrasing.
watched Miss Congenality 2 (ok, I can't spell) at Lido. the show was alright. I expected something better. went to Newton again. Ling and Alvin (her boyfriend) was there too. had supper together. took some photos with Ling and Debbie. it feels like they're leaving for good. sucks. I hate that kinda feeling.
I wasn't feeling well the whole day. I don't know if I was sad, happy, angry or something else. it feels like I've got no sense of touch. food doesn't appeal to me and nothing seems right. Debbie was saying that its the company that you are with. does that mean I'm missing someone? I wasn't as hyper as usual. I wasn't laughing and talking non stop at newton. Gabriel said I look sick and I look like I've lost weight, such that I look like a skeleton. how can there be so much changes in just a day? that sounds bad.
I was so "unwell" such that I was hiding behind a pair of shades for quite sometime. I felt that I couldn't face the world. I didnt even have the mood and energy to hit, argue and disturb Gabriel. sat around and i teared. gosh. it was weird. I couldn't even explain to anyone what was i feeling. Gabriel said I'm love sick. that sounded weird. I told him that I felt like the world has no colour, I'm gonna lose everything. people around me will start to leave, and things will be taken away from me. he said I'm rejecting my family and he keeps telling me how lucky I am to have a family and I should be glad cause some people do not even have one as much as they want to.
enough of the shit. there was a fight at newton. glass bottles thrown around. people chasing one another. Debbie and I were told to sit somewhere else. Joseph, Louis, Gabriel and some other adults were helping to stop the fight. Gabriel got a long cut on his leg. luckily the cut wasn't deep. then, there was an accident along the road. the police and ambulance came. alright, so much drama for the night.
left the food center, went to the bus stop as usual. not wanting to go home again. I got a little better, adrenaline rush, had the urge to hit people. I was trying to attack Joseph, Louis and Gabriel. was playing with Louis and Gabriel most of the time. Louis was teaching me how to attack and where were the weak point so I kept practising on him. chasing Gabriel and Louis all over the place till I was feeling so warm. so funny. felt so much better after attacking them. the bad thing is that I got a bruise on my finger. probably burst the blood vessel. Gabriel was too tired to play anymore. he went back to his hostel cause he need some rest and he's got project to do. *Bye and good morning Gabriel*
my white gold chain broke, and my cortina watch broke. I'm gonna get lots of scolding from my dad. part of the leather strap broke while I was playing. damn. such a long entry. I'm tired. bye.
cindy-ave-kelly (:
3/27/2005 07:22:00 PM
