Friday, January 07, 2005
i met d'wayne in town after class. walked around then i suggested going to Crystal Jade for my all time favourite shrimp dumpling. dinner was alright. i used his phone and took some pictures of myself and set it as his wallpaper. i wonder if it's still there. halfway through dinner, d'wayne took out this key that was hooked to a metal coated locket looking keychain. i asked him to show me the photo inside and he did. it was a picture of him and a girl. they look so close and sweet in the picture. i think its some sort of neo print. i acted cool about it and asked a little about her. another name that i've just blacklisted. i must have looked terrible with a reluctant smile.
he told me that she's not his girlfriend and if he has one, he'll let me know. was that suppose to assure me that he's single when he said stuff like, "she's seen me so many times in my uniform..".. "she made this thing for my birthday.." how sweet of her to make him a photo locket keychain. he added that i can make one for him too. its not like he's gonna use it, so what's the point of me making one for him. i thought a precious moment cross stitch takes more time plus sincerity with lots of love? i controlled my tears for a minute or so and was acting all happy, and he said "..someone's getting cranky..." its not like he doesnt know that i've got a really soft and emotional heart with the most watery eyes? * teared, and he got pissed. i wonder why. left Crystal Jade and we went our own ways.
walked around town myself then took a train home after that. i missed quite a number of calls from him and i received a message too. he asked if i was gonna reply. i replied to asked why he called and he said nevermind, as long as im ok. what was that suppose to mean?
my classmate noticed that d'wayne and i are closer and he treats me better when we're not together. why is that so? i don't understand why cant we be closer when we're together.
you, doing that thing you
do breaking my heart into a million pieces
like you always do
and you don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
i've been goin' through
well, i try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do
and i, know all the games you play
and i'm gonna find a way to let you know
that you'll be mine someday cause we, could be happy,
can't you see if you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
and keep you here with me
i don't ask a lot girl
but i know one thing's for sure
it's the love i haven't got girl and i just can't take it anymore
cause it hurts me so just to see you go around with someone new
and if i know you, you're doin' that thing every day,
just doing that thing i can't take you doing that thing you do
friday 01:41 am
cindy-ave-kelly (:
1/07/2005 01:41:00 AM
