Sunday, December 12, 2004
d'wayne and i met up today.we were better today.we didnt fight.met him at cine at abt 4pm.didnt wanna stay there so we went to city hall.had late lunch then he drove off to marina south.d'wayne didnt wanna let me drive his car.i realised that its a BMW z3 !!!!! oh my gosh. i like that car,though its not the best car in the market.its a 2 seater convertible so its a selfish car.laughs.a convertible is cool and stylish,but..but..its too cramp.yes..not enough space so you gotta move and give way here and there.it was so funny in the car.
we went to get the car washed.d'wayne almost forgot to bring up the shade.(whatever that thing is called).we were playing in the car while those guys were washing it.pinching,biting and so on.i was actually confronting him about this BITCH but we end up talking about the flaws and stuff.insulting and making fun.so mean but who cares.i hate her.you might know who this person is.
i was upset and rather pissed that he has to leave early again.thought we could spend the day tgt,or at least,have dinner tgt.he's going for dinner with his family which i didnt believe.i was accusing him the whole day of wanting to meet his gf and not bothering about me.i kept mentioning "new girlfriend".he kept saying there's no new girl and so on.he told me not to think so much cos i'll only hurt myself.well,he's quite considerate in that sense.
he was driving towards my house area.i acted blur with a angry and disappointed face and ask where is he going and he said he's going for dinner with me.omg.i started smiling so widely.gosh,i didnt act well this time.went drove from one shopping centre to another.wanted to eat at crystal jade but it was so crowded.end up having fast food.i didnt eat cos i wasnt that hungry.
i was talking to him nicely today.telling him about what am i unhappy about,what i wished he did..many more.this is somewhat like the first time i talked to him face to face about stuff i never did before.he didnt have much to say,just don't like it when i whine,all the time.drove off again.went out.he was sleeping in the car cos he was rather tired and troubled by his problems.sent me home after that.wonder when am i gonna see him again.i miss him.i wished d'wayne could be my boyfriend again,but its a little impossible cos i realised that we are quite different.he doesnt like to do things that i enjoy.and im not a sports person too.sighs.i find it so hard to be with d'wayne too.
i wanna be with him but i also don't want to.
its fucking confusing.
contradicting myself.
cindy-ave-kelly (:
12/12/2004 10:27:00 PM
