Wednesday, September 29, 2004
i've not been blogging for abt a week. im in school and there's nothing much to do. im blogging cos one of my classmate is blogging right now, so.. the sudden urge. i think i'll be too lazy to blog when i get home. there'll be lots of assignments waiting for me. they're haunting me, such that i cant get to sleep every night. -laughs- what nonsense.
i wasted my one-week holiday rotting. im either out with d'wayne, or im slepping + eating + watching tv at home. couch potato. but who cares. im sick of all the assignments that i have to complete. no sense of urgency at all. whats wrong with me. is it cos of relationship? so am i suppose to let go of everything? actually, i was suppose to let go long ago but i still choose to hold on.
for what??? hoping that my all-time fairytale life will come true.
but who knows what will happen from now till i get married.
who knows what might happen tmr? later? or the next few seconds?
no one knows. so whats the point of pinning high hopes on my fairytale life?
forget it. but maybe not.
-contradicting-
my mum bought me the whole almost the entire range of KOSE sensation white basic care. cleansing oil, washing cream, lotion, toning lotion, mosturiser and the lightening cream. -happiness- i better use those product regularly. with my KOSE whitening black mask as well. so that means i cant tan. well, i wanna be fair anyway. but..... i just bought 2 bikinis yesterday. and im thinking of tanning my body only. and i wanna remain fair too. sucks. and aj asked if i wanna go tanning before class. im still considering.
im acting blur. pretending not to hear what i heard. my classmate just told me that he saw d'wayne with anoher girl at PS. and my classmate said the girl is very pretty. pretty pretty girl. he's so lucky to have pretty girls around him but not me. im just a normal girl. what's with GIRLS GIRLS AND MORE GIRLS???
WHATEVER. do whatever he wants for all i care.
but if you guys see him with another girl, please let me know alright. dont hide it from me. if you dont tell me, you're not my true friend and you're playing with my feelings too. and i wont like you.
okok. getting a little too far now.
im going to have some light snacks now and im going to the library. this research lesson is too boring. im gonna do smtg more interesting. take care, blog.
cindy-ave-kelly (:
9/29/2004 03:30:00 PM
