Wednesday, March 24, 2004
woke up so early just to go to work at NTU.so far from my place.so warm while working.gotta sell some seminar tickets and do survey.not too bad.so many pple at NTU.so crowded.and there's this AIDS campaign going on..do not engage in casual sex and stuff..they were talking n talking abt it on the mic for so long den when im working,talking to the students.. i gotta talk so loudly..like shouting.. oh my.i hust realised that my braces are killing me now.so difficult to speak with it !!! one of the girls working there is an ex ij girl.one year older than me..den we were talking abt the teachers and stuff.. esp eric tan.. haha.. nice !! den had lunch there den went off.
so tired after working.went to j8 to meet my dad..didnt take dinner at all.feeling so sick.and upset ..
all the messages today made me feel so horrible.. im not suppose to keep in close contact with him but we're still msging..i miss him so so much......... he said he had to decide..and he decided to choose her.why not me.. its not fair to me.. said that it was the best for 3 of us.. so selfish.. i have to suffer and they both can carry on.. that girl said that i can have him all to myself den why is she still with him !!!! arrrrrghhhh!!!! *cries* kept asking why and all he could say was sorry.. really sorry.. and sorry again.. he wants me to move on and don hold back. ask me to find sm1 better and everything.. told me so much stuff that hurts so badly.. i was in public and had to hold back all my tears and it felt worst.. i don wanna move on without him!!! [ i want him i want him i want him ] !!! im stubborn. i don want anyone else !!!!!!! the last msg was.. "sorry girl.. really sorry.." ...........
*cry*cry*cry*
cindy-ave-kelly (:
3/24/2004 10:31:00 PM
